I have changed my name for this - I come on here to escape and have a laugh, and want to be able to continue to do so without people remembering this about me!!
But I really just need to tell someone - but I can't actually TELL someone, iyswim.
I hate my life, I hate everything about my life. I am a big fake, I pretend things are fine when inside I just want to drop dead.
I wish I'd not had kids cos I can't cope with them, sometimes I don't think I love them, I just wish they would leave me alone. And I feel even more bad because they have sn and need me so much, but I just want to shout at them to get away from me.
I don't have any marriage, just a housemate!
We are waaaaay below the poverty line, with people chasing us all the time.
I am fat and ugly and practically housebound and no matter how hard I try, I always fail.
I wish I could have a heart attack and die. I would kill myself but I am too cowardly because I am more scared of what might (or might not) be afterwards.
I make lots of jokes about everything and everyone thinks I'm an upbeat jolly person but I'm a fraud. I wish I was dead.
I have been shouting this inside my head and it has been driving me mad and I just needed to offload it in a place where nobody can come back on me and do anything.
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So sick of my life
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SickOfItAll · 06/01/2006 23:48
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