Bit muddled.

[Smurfgirl]

This is really silly

I am having a bit of a tough time adjusting to the 'big' stuff in life. I graduated in July (yay!) but have gone back to university to do a nursing degree and I feel a bit overwelhmed.

In a lot of ways I am over being a student, I can't wait until I stop sharing a house and I am finally settled with my wonderful boyfriend (remember the housemate saga!). I love my nursing placement even if uni is spectacularly boring but I am glad to be so busy and doing stuff.
But then I am 21 and STILL relying on my mum and dad for all my money and I have another 3 years of uni to go. I worked so hard for my 1st degree and ok I know everyone has an english degree these days but I did put some good work in and now I feel like that time and effort I spent has been lost.

And my housemate died and I miss her even though I thought I was ok with it. And its made me scared other people I love will die even though I know it probably won't happen. And then I see my parents getting older and that scares me a lot.

Everything just seems so big you know? I know thats silly and chilidish and there is a lot in this post. I know its a contradictition to not want to enter the big adult world, but to want to be finished with uni.

Hmm.

[Chandra]

I can only say a couple of things:

1. When I was your age I was desperate to finish the endless study hours of university, being economically independent and do whatever I wanted to do.
   
   
2. When I was well settled in my ideal job, I couldn't help thinking how wonderfully simple and relaxing university life was, longing for the days gone by
   
   Don't worry about your English degree not being in "active" use at this time, sooner or later you will realise that it can give you a head start in a particular job even when the job seems completely out of the range of things English graduates tend to go for. And better to do a change of "career" earlier than later. I have just done one (at 35) throwing away 2 postgraduate degrees and 12 yrs experience in a completely different area...