PNd or Post tramatic stress?

[jofeb04]

Hiya,
Im seeing the doctors tomorrow for my 6-8week postnatel check, and dont know if its worth mentioning how i feel.
I had a tramatic birth with my dd and also with my ds (21months ago!). Ive been feeling teary whenever i think about the two births, feel guilty because i havent had a "perfect" birth, think there was something that i could have done to alter the way things turned out. I didnt breastfeed for certain reasons (i wanted to try it), and also "feel guilty" about that. I love my two children, and do not have any sort of bad thought towards them.
Do you think this could be pnd or some sort of post tramatic stress?
I take things that my dh say totally the wrong way, and am sick of having to act happy in front of family or friends. My dh does know how im feeling, and is worried about me. He is also very understanding.
Im feeling down because im still in a bit of pain from SPD (its seems to have gotten worse over the past few weeks), i suffer from IBS which is being affected due to how im feeling, which in turn makes me feel even worse!!
I try to get out of the house every day.
I dont want to take tablets as i feel that i will be letting everyone down, but i dont know what else the doctor would do.

[jofeb04]

Oh yea,
I might also have low iron levels (have had blood tests, but need to have another one done!)

[Piggiesmum]

How did you get on?

I can sympathise/empathise?? with the feeling teary when thinking about the birth. My ds is 6 weeks today and his birth was a very scary experience. I'm also sick of putting on a happy face for people who don't know me very well.
I also don't want to take tablets, the hv did the edinburgh test on me and says I'm borderline for having pnd, and i've been wondering whether it could be some sort of post-traumatic stress and whether to mention anyting to the doctor. Would be interested to hear what yours said

[margyfargy]

Not sure if this helps but here is a brief description of PTSD

Typical symptoms include episodes of repeated reliving of the trauma in intrusive memories ("flashbacks") or dreams, occurring against the persisting background of a sense of "numbness" and emotional blunting, detachment from other people, unresponsiveness to surroundings, anhedonia, and avoidance of activities and situations reminiscent of the trauma. Commonly there is fear and avoidance of cues that remind the sufferer of the original trauma. Rarely, there may be dramatic, acute bursts of fear, panic or aggression, triggered by stimuli arousing a sudden recollection and/or re-enactment of the trauma or of the original reaction to it.

There is usually a state of autonomic hyperarousal with hypervigilance, an enhanced startle reaction, and insomnia. Anxiety and depression are commonly associated with the above symptoms and signs, and suicidal ideation is not infrequent. Excessive use of alcohol or drugs may be a complicating factor.

A friend of mine suffered very severe PTSD - it lasted for several years.

IMHO I would suggest that you are displaying symptoms of depression rather than PTSD.

[slinkstah]

margyfargy- omg what you hve described is what i am feeling, i dont think im depressed, i am just anxious about alot of things and have flashbacks from the day i got a bfp to the day of my babies funeral, i lost her at 23 weeks gestation. its like a video playing in my head over and over. i have to watch tv until i sleep at night and i wake up with the video still playing. i am also pg again and just cannot bring myself to go to the drs to get the referral i need for any antenatal care.
is there any advice you can give me, what can i do about this?