Hi everyone, first post - and it's a depressing one
It's the middle of the night and I am sat here in tears and don't know how to sort myself out.
Where do I even start??
I have a 4 year old son who is severely autistic and I'm in a loveless relationship with his father. My life is shit. 5 years ago I had a career, money, I was okay-looking and I had some self respect. Now I'm a fat, frumpy, miserable mother who drinks too much and doesn't sleep enough. My house is a mess, I have no friends and am drowning in debt. How do I even begin to sort this disaster out?
I'm feeling particularly depressed tonight as I have just recieved my son's DLA forms and am having a really hard time facing up to all the things that he cannot do that all the other children of his age can do. Half term is never great for me as I don't get a break from him during the day.
I was going to put this on the Special Needs board, but this is more about me than my son.
How do I rebuild my life? I so much want to be a person again, not just a mother. I want to look at myself in the mirror and like what I see and I want to wake up in the morning and not dread the day ahead of me.
Is there anyone else who has been where I am now and is now enjoying life, or at least not hating it?
Sorry for this rambled message. Too much vodka and not enough sleep.
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UpTheJunction · 28/10/2005 04:00
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