Please read, really need some help

[imshaking]

Not sure if I will click the "create conversation" button or not after I have typed this. I really, really don't know what is wrong with me. Can anyone please tell me how you would know if you were having a nervous breakdown. I just feel as if I am going crazy, everything is on top of me at the minute and I am just not able to cope anymore. I just fly off the handle so easy at the minute and it is really god help anyone in my path. I don't know where it is stemming from in the last 3-4 weeks.

[misdee]

you need to see the gp ASAP.

[imshaking]

But what do I say

[pussycatmomma]

hi sounds like you could do with some support....whats wrong honey-pie? im not an expert but have been "through the mill" as it were.

[kid]

Do you have young children or a stressful job?

[misdee]

just say you think you cant cope atm. they could perscribe so AD's or some sleeping pills if its lack of sleep making you feel like this.

[imshaking]

I wouldn't know where to start

[dramaqueen72]

sorry to hear youre feeling like this
take a deep breath, a hot bath and do make that appointment for the drs tomorrow. speaking to someone will so help you, and nobody will judge you or think any different.
take it easy.

[imshaking]

It is a combination of all of those things that everyone has said, job, lack of sleep, kids - just everything

[ggglimpopo]

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[pussycatmomma]

That really is the best thing you can do... have you a history of depression? have you felt similiarly before?

[doormat]

try and make an appt with out of hours gp if you can

[pussycatmomma]

has something set you off today in particular hun?

[kid]

Do you have family or friends living near you? Maybe they can lend a hand.

[imshaking]

No history of depression. I have a RL friend that I think I might phone later but she has been calling me the last few days and I keep avoiding her calls. Just seems everytime I am talking to her is about problems. She is great and she has been through tough times herself. If truth be told I have seen a councillor some time ago and I know I should go back but... and I know what you will say, when I say this ... I just never seem to have the time. He doesn't do evening sessions and it is a struggle to try and get them in during work hours.

[pussycatmomma]

Sometimes its hard to make a sense of how we are feeling, and that can sometimes be part of the problem. Sometimes it can really help to write it all down, even just for yourself, and start with the bad feelings you have. This can realy help you start to define exactly how you feel, whether its scared, angry, alone, and once you have a slight handle on the feelings, then you can move on to "whats the problem". I learnt all this in a cognitive therapy group - i am the original fruit-loop xx

[startingtobehalloweenylover]

imshaking YOU ARE ENTITLED TO TIME OFF FROM WORK IF YOU HAVE APPT WITH A COUNSELLOR

[imshaking]

Councillor told me to avoid AD;s as they don't help in the overall picture. Went to councillor for things that have happened in my past that aren't necessarily to do with my present life. Does that make sense.

[startingtobehalloweenylover]

oops sorry ds presse caps lock

[startingtobehalloweenylover]

ad's won't make the problem go away... but they can make YOU more stable while you deal with the problems.

[imshaking]

I just want to be happy again, be able to smile, to have fun again, to stop being so negative, to just be everything I'm not at the moment

[pussycatmomma]

i completly agree, ad can really help you get a hold on things, but they are not the solution. The solutions to stuff really do come from you yourself, thats what ive found anyway. You are allowed time off for med appts / psychologists etc as the other lady said. As for avoiding other people, i would get a medal for that. dont worry we all do it, thats why its easier to type to strangers sometimes.

[imshaking]

Pussycat I get where you are coming from because the councillor I went to was on about that sort of thing writing things down and how it helped others and how they wrote things they never knew was bothering them. My relationship with my children is deteriorating because I am always so moody and I just want this anymore. I'm not a bad mum, I love them dearly and it is only in the last few weeks that I just seem to want to cry all the time but don't know why.

[imshaking]

Pussycat did it take long for you to turn the corner?

[imshaking]

Sorry there is someone at the door so I have to go. I would like to come back later if your still around. Thanks

[Blu]

ImShaking - Poor you - it must be a horrible feling. Don't panic, you are not going mad - but you might be depressed, and you might be having a panic attack.
IMO/ IME there is a difference in being depressed because of events, and depression stemming from an imbalance in the chemicals in your brain. I was definitely depressed after having DS - not PND, long-term chronic depression, and I went on a short course of low-does ADs. Brilliant! It absolutely helped me! But you may have other causes, too. It may be that you have a bit of a mixtre of both. I do think it would be worth having a chat with your GP.
Keep posting - that may well help - and at least you will know that plenty of other people have trod the same path. And survived!
And yes, if you get really bad tonight, phone the samartitans.