I just can't believe what a failure I feel at this exact minute. I have been on an absolute high for months, but this has been creeping up on me for some time now. I'm scared my bulimias coming back, although I haven't actually made myself sick yet, all the other signs are there. I just wonder if I should drop out of uni, but with only one year to go I really feel I should hang on in. Last year going to my seminars was a terrifying thing for me, and now I'm getting full blown panic attacks just thinking about them. I enjoy them once I'm there, I just guess everyone still remembers me as the one who was pregnant in the first year and it makes me feel awkward. Noone knows what to say to me so they don't bother I can literally feel my self confidence dropping. For the first time in months I got changed before I went out yesterday because I was scared I looked fat, and I'm even afraid to tell my boyfriend I love him in case he doesn't say it back, even though he's wonderful I'm worried that I'm displacing all my worries about financing this year onto my eating, but I can't seem to help it, which is really scary when I thought I was over all this. I'm also constantly jumpy at home as my rent's been late for a couple of months, and even though my landlords been great about it I have this unreasonable fear that he's going to come and evict me. Even when I hear a car door slam in the middle of the night i'm terrified that its him, even though that's so stupid. I just would like advice on how I can relax my mind I suppose. I can't really sleep which I think is making the problem worse, I can't really think logically. I am so sorry to have to post on this forum again
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