Is it normal to think you've made the wrong decision?

[CrazyShake]

Filed for divorce, dh has alcohol and drug issues, although he doesn't think he does. Displayed such behaviour in front of the dc (3 and 7 months). Doesn't communicate with me, refused counselling.

I've left with the dc. He refused to leave. He doesn't want a divorce, doesn't want any of this.

Now ive gone I'm wavering and wondering whether I've made the right decision. Dd woke crying for him the other night. I'm staying with family whilst looking for a new house to live in.

Maybe I should have tried harder or put up with it until he was prepared to change? Or done counselling on my own to help my reaction to him until he was prepared to come along too?

I can't talk to anyone about it as they'd think me crazy for even considering it!

I'm struggling with the fact that I'm the one ending this, breaking up our young family, moving the dc away, the one to deal with the fall out by myself, to deal with everything by myself from now on...

God it's so hard.

[STIDW]

Falling out of love and hurting somebody you still care about is one of life's cruelest situations. It's painful and confusing and a process filled with doubt and guilt. When you feel awkward and irritable, have nothing to talk about and find your husband's habits annoying and grow unhappier and more resentful each day you live together reconciliation won't work.