I feel encouraged after visit to fertility clinic but am scared I am heading for heartbreak

[lostittoday]

Hi
I have been ttc for 14 months and it has been a terrible time.
After missed periods and a high fsh diagnosis I was put under investigation for either early menopause or premature ovarian failure.
The fertility clinic put me on a months supply of hrt to try and spur my ovaries into action this does appear to have worked as I have now had two normal cycles a day 21 test also showed that I had ovulated.
I am so pleased and after fearing that I was not going to have any more dc's I have fresh hope.
The fertility clinic say I am not out of eggs yet and I am still in with a chance naturally but there is no telling how long my eggs will last.
As well as having renewed hope I am also worried to death that I am still close to menopause and things will not happen before its too late for me I am 38 so I do know that time is not on my side.
The fertility clinic said that if my cycle stops again then I can take another months supply of hrt to see if that gets things working again.
I do find this stressful and I am worried that ultimately it will still end in tears.
I feel like such a loon with my way of thinking but what if I only have a few eggs remaining sorry I know I sound crazy. but I can,t bear it if things don,t happen.

[MrsHappy]

Hi

I'm not sure what to say to you. TTC is absolutely heartbreaking when it doesn't work, but then coming to a point where one feels able to give up TTC is difficult too.

Of course you are worried that it won't work. We're contemplating IUI/IVF in the new year and are naturally worried that we'll spend a ton of money and use all our energy going through IVF and still not get our baby. But the way I look at it is that I would rather try and fail than not try. I would seriously regret never trying. I'm just not ready to give up yet, and if you are not ready either then you have to keep going, don't you?

[cherrylips]

Hello,

Try to keep positive and try to relax. You may be feeling even more anxious about the future because of all the hormonal changes you are going through.

I do hope that you get pregnant. Good luck.