First cycle trying after MC. AF/BFP due Wednesday 15th....too nervous for words!

[angelgabe]

I started this same thread in December and was lucky enough (after 7 months!) to get pregnant with our first. Unfortunately I had a mc just before Christmas at 5 weeks. Cycle was a bit erratic at the start but looks like I ovulated at my normal time and BBT has risen. I'm almost certain I won't be lucky enough to get pregnant straight away after mc but I thought starting a thread like last time might help!!

[Tutti]

Good luck angel babe .... I am on your other thread.... I cannot begin to imagine how you feel ... I am so desperate to try straight away but already dread the wait to find out if I am lucky to catch first month after miscarriage too cxx

[Baxter2014]

How did you get on angelgabe? fx for you xx

[SwedeAway]

Good Luck angelbabe - I am also on your other thread. Also mc'd in December and now ttc again. Waiting to Ov and I am already 2 days later than usual. So now very anxious and frustrated as I just want reassurance that I am working properly so to speak. Its anxious times and I am so desperate to be pg again but I know deep in my heart that I probably wont be that lucky straight away.

Keeping fx for you.

[angelgabe]

Hi all
Will give you as much info as poss without putting you off your dinner!

Well I was due on yesterday but not arrived. BBT always drops the day before AF arrives but this is still high and has remained high since ovulation. Ovulation was only a day late which was really reassuring. Did a cheapie pregnany test this afternoon....wishful thinking!! It was negative :-( I wasn't surprised. Earlier this evening went to the toilet and when I wiped there was the faintest brown marks on the tissue but nothing in the toilet. Just now there was a little bit more but it came out as a very small clot. All brown and nothing blood like. Still secretly hoping it's now just an implantation bleed. I may be overwhelmed with sadness for for my loss but even I am giving myself credit for optimism!!
So no period yet and temperature still high. Negative pregnancy test. Cramps and breast tenderness just like a pre-menstrual symptoms and pregnancy symptom. So I am none the wise as to what is going on!!
If AF does arrive as I expect it will, then i'll be pleased that body is back to normal and only 1 day late. Really pleased I ovulated. If no sign of AF tomorrow morning am doing another HPT....why not!!
Thanks ladies for keeping in touch....i'll keep you posted!
When are your BFP's/AF's due? !!!

[Tutti]

Gosh got everything crossed for you xxxx

[angelgabe]

Thank you Tutti x
How are you feeling after your horrendous week? xx

[SwedeAway]

Oh, keeping fingers crossed for you angel!

As my Ov has not happened yet I have no idea where I am in my cycle. If it was a normal cycle I should have Ov'd 2-3 days ago but according to opk's this has not happened. I suspect I will need to wait for my AF before knowing what is going on.

[angelgabe]

Thanks Swede.....although AF arrived this morning with avengeance!
On the one hand I feel so fortunate that my body is "back to normal", AF only a day or 2 late and according to BBT I did ovulate as now my temp has dropped considerably. Only thing I didn't have was any watery or egcm.
On the flip side, if everything is back to normal I should have had as good a chance as any other month to conceive but didn't. :-(
So the journey continues. I am having some bloods done this month, day2/3 and day 21. These were requested before I got pregnant as nothing had been happening. So assuming they are ok but will be good to exclude another potential problem or be able to deal with it.
In terms of knowing when/if you ovulate Swede I was having the same dilemma but BBT helped reassure me. The lack of CM concerned me though. As a result we just dtd every other day as thought that would be the best thing to do. I'd keep to that but if you think your fertile go every day if you can. That's what I would have done differently.
The other thing i've talked to myself about (!!) is that if my body isn't physically ready to get pregnant again it won't so keep that thought in mind. I'd rather wait another painstakingly slow month knowing i'll get pregnant and my body is in better shape to maintain the pregnancy to term than get pregnant again for another MC to happen.
Sorry i'm droning on!!
Keep in touch and let me know how you get on. Same for you Tutti and Baxter.
Hoping you all have a good cycle and BFP's come your way. Someone's got to get one!!
xxxx

[SwedeAway]

Ah angel - sorry to hear that AF made her appearance! But as you say, at least you know that everything is now back to normal and working as it should. To be honest, at the moment I would be grateful if AF arrived for me as well as at least it would give me an indication where I am in my cycle and that all is well. This living in limbo and not knowing is really frustrating. I shall take your advice though and keep dtd every other day and if I think Ov is happening then every day. If no Ov by next week then I shall resign to the fact that it wont happen this month.

[Tutti]

Oh angel that's crap .... Xxx

But as you say at least you know you are 'working ' properly .... But it's still rubbish I know xxx

Well I am feeling a bit better I suppose .. I am back at work .. And have had a couple of tears .. But on the whole .. Ok xx

I am just concentrating on ttc again ... Xx but will keep popping on here ... Xxx good luck all and as angel says keep in touch ... I check/lurk every day ... It keeps me sane knowing there are others feeling the same as me ... I don't feel so alone ( although I am supported in rl very well ) but here you don't have to explain yourself :.. We all 'get' it xxx

[angelgabe]

That's how I felt Swede when I got AF....a bit relieved actually. Desperate to get pregnant again but the whole month was so stressful that AF brought back normality weirdly. Now we're ready to make this cycle our cycle!! Fx!
Tutti take care of yourself....I'm a couple of weeks ahead of you but at work this Tuesday I was so overwhelmed I could hardly stop crying all day. That night I think I cried myself to sleep. DH was so wonderful but I just couldn't help it. It's going to happen so be kind to yourself.
Good to know we're all straight back on the TTC train so sending lots of love for BFP's soon, soon, soon!!
Me too will check on here, so keep in touch.
xxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxx

[Baxter2014]

Hello lovely ladies, sorry to hear about AF angelgabe but you are right in that at least you are back to normal. I am now post 1st AF after MC (was normal but lasted for 8 days instead of 5) and have decided to do the Sperm meets egg plan. We are currently on CD12 so fingers crossed ovulation in the next few days (haven't got positive on the opk sticks yet tho :/) now I'm worrying I won't ovulate again! This whole process is so filled with worry and anxiety. To top it off another one of my closest friends had told me she is preggers! I am so pleased for her but it just feels like another blow.

Hope getting back to work is helping the return to normality Tutti. It does get easier as time goes on. I am feeling a lot more positive these days that's for sure.

Let me know how you all get on. I'll keep you posted on what's happening here. Fingers crossed this SMEP works!! X x

[Tutti]

Hey hey .. Just checking in xx

Baxter we are following smep plan this month too ..

If feels like a very long month so far though ...

I have actually felt ok today .. No tears or sadness ....just acceptance ... Hope that's a sign of things to come xxx

[SwedeAway]

Still waiting for something (anything) here According to my chart I should be cd 19 but I have not Ov'd (that I was aware of) so who knows where in my cycle I actually am. Waiting for AF so i can get back to business. This is so frustrating.

[Tutti]

swede.....so frustrating!

[Tutti]

Oh and just keep dtd...xx

[Baxter2014]

swede its totally rubbish. Patience is a virtue I know I definitely dont possess. You will get back to normal eventually just try and stay positive if you can.

I just got a positive OPK so I am really pleased - know it doesn't guarantee an egg will pop out but i'm back to normal as far as my cycles go and now we can get on with smashing this SMEP - 3 day straight -DTD thing and see how we get on.

Fingers and toes crossed for us all!!! xx

[SwedeAway]

Just got a smiley on my opk, over the moon! Dtd for the next few days for sure!

[Tutti]

Swedes that's great!!!!!

[Baxter2014]

Hurray! Get doing it!! ??

[SwedeAway]

Thanks guys. Went straight back on it last night. Poor DH, I think I have worn him out with dtd:)

[Baxter2014]

I feel like this is the first cycle I have done everything by the book - I have tracked my ovulation, I have DTD as per the SMEP, I'm taking my folic acid/vitamins and I am feeling positive about the whole process. All that plus the supposed increased fertility after MC.

I am trying not to get my hopes up but I feel I will be bloody disappointed if this doesn't work now I am trying so hard! I know deep down that this will happen for me relatively soon but I am the most impatient person on the planet and want a BFP NOW!!

I think I have always managed to find some excuse as to why it didn't work before (too stressed, not knowing when I ovulate, using flaming KY Jelly for 4 months :/ .....) now I have no excuses and am just down to the 25% chance of conception. I dont like not being able to control this but I suppose I have done all I can and now I have to leave it to nature/God/chance

Aghhhhhhh roll on 3rd Feb. Am I going mental? Sorry for the rant ladies. I am feeling positive, honest!

[Tutti]

Oh baxter its frustrating isn't it?

we are following smep...but as yet no sign of ovulation..but I also am vv impatient...I just 'need' to focus on ttc ..it takes my mind away rom the shock and disbelief of my miscarriage [I feel like the cruelest trick was played on me ....it was a totally unplanned preganacy, was in shock and kind of could not get my head round it then did, became super excited...for it to be taken away..its just hellish] I still get upset and also quite angry at the unjustness of it all....

Sorry it appears to be a day for rants

[angelgabe]

Great news Swede.....fingers crossed!
And Baxter you've done everything right....let nature take it's course. And if it doesn't then I'll be gutted for you too!!
Tutti...it is hellish, just try to think of the next BFP you're going to get because you will. Be positive.
Keeping everything crossed...apart from the obvious!....for you all. My next BFP is arriving 16th Feb. We are convincing ourselves it's our Valentine present to each other!!

[Tutti]

angel thanks for the positive words....

I just want it to work ..as we all do...
this thread is helping loads... I know I can come on here and have you guys going through the same ...