With ds (now 3.6) we were fortunate to get pregnant on our second month of TTC. I was very sick when pregnant, it was a high risk pregnancy anyway and the ended in am emergency c section and a prem baby.
I had pnd and really regretted having ds for at least the first 12 months. There was just no connection. I know it sounds awful and I tried not to show how terrible it was and believe I succeeded as even my own mother believes I was thrilled and happy. I tried not to show it to ds either as it wasn't his fault.
Anyway now we are nearly a year into trying to conceive a second child and it's not happening. I feel like it's karma for being so ungrateful about ds when he was a baby. I love him completely and utterly now of course. I'm also worried that maybe it's because Im a few years older (30) and dh is 38. Or maybe it was the c section as I had an infection afterwards. I don't know, I just feel li,e we are never going to have a other baby and maybe fate is telling me it's because I was such a crap mum when ds was born. I couldn't even feed him end ended up expressing for six months instead.
I know Im ovulating because I've charted, used kits and have symptoms. I have a regular 26 day cycle. So why aren't we getting pregnant and when should I see a doctor or just give up? :-(
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Onlyhappywhenitsnows · 21/11/2012 20:04
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