Do ring, MamaG.

It's completely understandable that you're stalling on making that call, & nervous about the prospect of talking about such a traumatic experience again, as you want to be able to just not think about it. That's part of the nature of trauma.

But you are thinking about it anyway, and you seem kind of stuck in the trauma of it. If you do go through with the debrief hopefully you'll be able to make some sense of it & file it all away in a fashion that will make it less raw and painful. It's really, really hard to do this on your own, but talking to someone else who knows what things to say and questions to ask can make an amazing difference.

You definitely shouldn't be so hard on yourself & think that you should just "get the fuck over it", but you can get past the trauma of it with the right help.

Go on, make the call. It could be the best thing you can do.

Good luck MamaG, now is the perfect time to go through it, understand what happened and why and be able to deal with it all, before you move. Do ring. Be brave.

We obv have exquisite taste

Haven't rung yet - am sorting all house move crap out and I'm struggling to find time. I know, excuses excuses! Felling a smidge wobbly now as "this time last year" syndrome kicks in with a vengance (I was in labour!)

Just read your birth story MamaG, sounds pretty scary, no wonder you feel stressed by it all.

I had an awful delivery with DS1, very bad PND and ended up having counselling to get over what happened. I'd recommend it if you are still feeling it now!

Your DS2 has the same first and second names as my DS3, who is 1 on 24th of this month

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ok ok <breaks under nagging> I'll try to ring in a bit

I've been on holiday for a week, PrincessMel managed to have her baby while I was away, can't you make that phonecall, MamaG?

<Joins Norma in Paddington hard stare and nagging>

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haha no I haven't - I've been ill though

Have you called back about the debrief?

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