oneofapair, I have only just seen this. I am so, so sorry.

I don't know what to say except to wish you strength and love at this awful time.

Back in early October I wrote that although I was very grateful for the help received from Mumsnet readers (especially pinkpanettone) after my twin sister Caroline died I thought that it was probably sensible to focus all my energy on the advice and support offered by the specialists and my circle of close friends. Then a week ago today my Mother also died and so I did post here a couple of times but then went silent again which might have caused a bit of concern. This is the current situation.

Mum is being cremated on Monday.

Dad will not be allowed to attend because of his mental health issues.

I have resigned from my previous job and will work full time in the family business as “The Gaffer”, ie the boss.

Progress on getting probate on Caroline’s Estate is painfully slow and the tax bill is going to be painfully large.

I am living in Caroline’s house with my former house being rented out. I haven’t made much progress in throwing any of her things away yet but am much more peaceful in my mind than I was. I can feel Caroline is looking down on me.

Sue and I will get married as planned in spring 2010.

I might update once a month but apart from that it is goodbye and goodluck to you all.

So glad to know you're not on your own. You're in my thoughts and prayers x

Sue is sitting with me in Mum's house and Mrs Reese from next door has just left. She popped in just to check I wasn't on my own. She will tell the neighbours what has happened.

It getting so lonely down here. Pray for me.

No words will comfort you right now. Just know we will be here to listen to you as a place to write your thoughts and fears and if we could do more, we would. So sorry.

So so sorry Oneofapair Im sending you healing thoughts, and sending you love and hugs and my thoughts are with you. You poor poor thing, Im SO sorry for your loss.

Is someone with you tonight?

I am really sorry to have to tell Mumsnet readers that my Mother died this morning. The GP found here sitting in her armchair at 10:30 and she feels that Mum died about 30 minutes earlier. There were no signs of distress so the heart attack must have killed her within a few seconds.

I spent the afternoon telling Dad the news - he is still in the secure unit - and then at the same undertakers who acted for my dear twin Caroline so recently.

I think it going to be a long night

Oneofapair - I'll be thinking of you.

Sorry, I missed your last post Oneof. Wishing you all the best and I hope you get the support and advice you need.

oneofapair - good luck. We are always here if you need us xxxxxxxxxxxxx