I'm so frightened I can hardly sleep

[sweetheart]

We are getting the post mortum results tomorrow evening of the baby we lost in January. I was feeling positive about hearing the reasons why we lost our baby son until I found out I'm pregnant again.

Now I know that these results may have a direct link to wether this baby survives or not and I'm terrified. I've had trouble sleeping for the last couple of weeks and the last 2 nights I've hardly slept at all.

I just wish I could get it over with now!!!

[SleepyJess]

It will soon be over SH... tomorrow isn't that far away, it just feels it. I hope it is positive news. Sending you ~~~~~~~goood vibes~~~~~~~ for a healthy pregnancy. I hope you can relax soon.

SJ xx

[Titania]

aw hun. Im so sorry. I dont know what to say. Keep strong. Hope you have a healthy pregnancy this time. So sorry for the loss of your little boy {{{HUGS}}}

[george32]

{{{{{{{{{{{hugs}}}}}}}}}}}}}} for you.
You must be going through a dreadful time.
I do hope the news you get is positive for this pregnancy.
xx

[Spacecadet]

oh sweetheart how awful for you.{{{hugs}}}, its possible that there is no causitive link and that your loss was a "one off", try and rest if you can, i can appreciate that this is a tense time for you

[bubble99]

sweetheart. I'm so sorry to hear about the loss of your baby boy and so glad to hear that you are pregnant again. Do you mind me asking? And if you don't want to talk about it I quite understand, but, how did it happen? At what stage did you lose your little lad?

[katzguk]

Sweetheart - all my thoughts are with you tomorrow.

[Thomcat]

Oh babes, sorry about your baby son. But congratulations on your pregnancy. I'm sure it'll be fine. Wish there was more I could say. Hope you sleep well tonight and for the next 8 a bit months or so. And then I hope you are woken at 2am, 4am, 6 am and so on by a beautiful healthy baby, TC xx

[Toothache]

SH - Hope you get some answers and I hope the news is good for the little one you're 'cooking' just now. for your loss and for the hope that in a few months you'll be holding a healthy bundle of hard work in your arms.

[sweetheart]

Bubble,

I had a missed m/c at 16 weeks. Baby had only grown to 13 weeks.

I have been told that the hospital will be scanning me today. I'm more frightened than ever now.

[Marina]

best of luck sweetheart, thinking of you. Remember, in lots of ways, if they say they don't know why your baby died last time, that is a "better" prognosis for this pregnancy. That's what I was told. It varied from day to day as to how I felt about that piece of information.
We never found out, and I think you need to prepare yourself with the statistic that over 50% of post-mortems for miscarriages and stillbirths are inconclusive.
Sending you lots of hopeful and positive vibes. Please, please let us know how you get on, lots of us will be concerned for you and your baby. XXX

[Nemo1977]

SH hun hugs to u I know how worried you are. I hope everything goes great today and ur scan is positive and that babies post mortum results dont have a genetic / detrimental effect on your precious bean. You know where I am when you wanna chat

[sweetheart]

thanks Marina,

They have already told us it was a congenital heart problem - just hope they can be more specific and give us details of if it's a genetic thing or just a "one-off"

[Marina]

Oh, goodness, I remember now, sorry sweetheart. No wonder you are so very worried. I do know at least three people who went through similar bereavements and all were a one-off gene-mutation heart defect rather than an inherited one. So hoping for the same for you XXXX

[bubble99]

sweetheart. If you can, please let us know how you got on today. Thinking of you.

BubbleXX

[nappybaglady]

Fingers cossed for good news for you.

xx

[MrsWednesday]

Thinking of you today Sweetheart.x

[Heathcliffscathy]

me too sweetheart. good luck, hope that it is all reassuring news for you x

[Lizzylou]

Really hope all goes well for you xxxx

[Lizzylou]

Really hope all goes well for you xxxx

[sweetheart]

Thanks everyone - will post on Friday how it went - I won't have internet access until then I'm afraid!!!

[Marina]

Any news sweetheart? How did it go?

[sweetheart]

The post mortum shows that he had a hole in his heart but also that the side that pumps the blood round the body (left???) wasn't formed properly.

They are not sure why he stopped growing at 13 weeks or why my body held onto him for a further 4 weeks + but they said it's probably because the rest of his organs weren't getting enough blood to develop.

Apparently he could have continued to develop like this for longer but he never would have lived in this condition so in a way I'm glad we lost him when we did.

As my father was born with a hole in his heart we are now considered to have a family history of heart problems and so I will be watched more closly. I am being booked into Guy's Hospital for a special 18 week scan which will concentrate on the heart and let us know if this baby has any problems.

Apparently I have a 90-95% chance of everything being normal.

I also had a scan whilst I was there and saw a tiny little heartbeat which was very reassuring.

Thanks for all your concern. Hopefully in about 10 weeks I can post that this baby has no heart probelms!!!!!

[Nemo1977]

aww SH glad everything is well with this bean...am sure u will be posting everything is ok..as u said there is a reason why so many of us on our thread have lost beans and are now together for our xmas babes

[Hulababy]

Thinking of you sweetheart. Hope that scan goes well at 18 weeks. Good luck with your pregnancy - hope the next few months go well

[Marina]

Sweetheart, it must be a help to know that although you lost him, he wasn't going to survive after birth...I'm so sad for you both though. I'm very pleased to hear that they think all the signs for your new baby's heart health are good though, that is terrific news, and also that you are going to have the reassurance of that specialist scan, and extra monitoring and care. Have a good weekend XXX