Some of you may know parts of my story already. She is my first baby. At my 20 week scan we were told that our baby girl had a condition that was incompatible with life. This was not officially confirmed until I was 24 weeks pregnant. Living in Northern Ireland we had no option but to continue with the pregnancy knowing that our daughter, if she was born alive, would not survive for very long. We also knew that due to her condition, her heart could potentially stop at any time.
Over the last few weeks I developed polyhydramnios, a build up of amniotic fluid caused by my daughter no longer being able to swallow. I blew up like a balloon! I really was massive! Then on Monday morning (I was 34 weeks pregnant) I woke up and felt a warm feeling, to be honest I thought I had peed myself! I went to the toilet but the water did not stop. I was pretty sure then that my waters had gone. I woke my husband and we headed over to the admissions unit at my hospital. They confirmed that my waters had gone but also that there was no heartbeat.
We were sent home to get a good breakfast and get prepared and then headed back to the hospital to be induced. This started at 12noon and by 8.53pm my daughter had been born. She weighed only 3 pounds. She had a head full of thick jet black hair. We spent the might with her and then they took her away on Tuesday and I was discharged from hospital.
The funeral was yesterday. It was beautiful. As we buried her I could hear birds chirping and singing in the trees.
My heart is shattered into a million pieces but I do feel relieved that this ordeal is finally over and now we can grieve properly.
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TheBabyFacedAssassin · 30/05/2014 06:29
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