I miss my dad

(7 Posts)
madasa Mon 28-Oct-13 21:41:58

Two years ago today I lost my best friend....my dad.

I don't understand how it can feel like a lifetime since I last saw him and also just 5 minutes.

I feel like a little girl who needs her daddy.

I miss his warmth, his humour, his kindness, his wisdom, his love.....I just miss him completely.

I hurt today as much as I have ever done since the day he left me. It feels like a scab on my heart which keeps opening up.

I feel absolutely blessed and privileged that I could call him my dad (he met my mum when I was just 18 months old and adopted me when I was 5 years old)

I miss him so badly....I hope he knew just how much I loved him.

kansasmum Mon 28-Oct-13 21:47:01

Oh it's so hard isn't it? I lost my Dad this year and my heart ACHES for him. I miss him everyday, he was my darling dad and nothing will ever be quite the same again will it?
Hugs to you cos it bloody hurts losing a parent.

I guess we are lucky to have great dads. The downside is it bloody kills now they're gonesad

madasa Mon 28-Oct-13 21:53:30

You are so right kansasmum that's exactly how I feel....that nothing will ever be the same again.

I still don't quite know how to live this new life that I have without him in it.

I'm sorry you have lost your dad too sad

ladymariner Sun 03-Nov-13 23:46:57

I too know just how you both feel. I'm lying here in bed in floods of tears because I miss my dad so very very much, and life just isn't the same without him. He died nearly two months ago and whilst I appear to be getting on with life and copying, there is this massive Dad-shaped hole and it hurts.
He was my hero, ever since I was little I always felt my Dad could do anything, mend anything, and then the dementia came and he wasn't the same but he was still my Dad and I loved him so much, still love him so much and always will.
He was such a special, kind, wonderful man and I miss him so much xxxxx

carvedpumpkin Fri 08-Nov-13 14:35:36

I can only offer sympathy and say I am having the same feelings today, my dad died in June this year and sometimes I miss him so much it's like I've been winded. I'm lying in bed crying at the moment because I've been off work this week and started to feel better today so I made some soup. This reminded me that this week one of my fuses blew and erased all messages on my answering machine. I had a message on there that he'd left for me telling me he had made me some soup when I was coming home from the hospital after having dd. It sounds so stupid, the message was so mundane yet he was so happy we were coming home (had been kept in for a few weeks) and he just adored his granddaughter. It's not fair that he won't ever know the wee girl she is turning into now. I'm feeling so sorry for myself, and for dd, today.

openseason Tue 12-Nov-13 14:41:49

ive recently lost my mum october 3rd so very raw she died of a brain tumour and lost her site towards the end she wanted to be at home so we all did are bit to look after her i washed her on a morning my sister did it at night i was feeling at the time very resentful for doing it and i feel so ashamed i got on with it but i feel like i was selfish for not really wanting to do it towards the end i told her i diden,t want to do it and it was getting hard to lift her and i was struggling and saying can we get the nurses in that can clean her and i know she dident want that when the nurses came to see about it they wanted to put her in a nappy she woulden,t have wanted that the day i saw her the last i dident give her a hug and she died that night i feel like i was the one who gave her that last push and she died.i no it hasent anything to do with wahts happened to you but i,m sure your dad already knows how much you love him i,m guessing i know my mum still love,s me but how it gets to the end i guess where onlyhuman i miss my mum so much. my dad found it stressfull feeding and giving her medication in his late 70s the nurses came to do the dressings but know one said are we ok are we coping we all had the roles of jobs we had know experience for her last days were terrible to watch i just thoughtid get this all out even though it might not make sense to some people i guess the grief will never go away my mum was a big part of my life too i feel like ive lost my bestest friend in the whole world. every time i go to the house she,s not there and it hits me again.

openseason Tue 12-Nov-13 14:52:47

it,s hard seeing my dad like this withouther they were together oher 40 years it,s hard seeing my sister living at home without my mum it,s hard to see my
daughter without her grandma and for me the pain of losing her and my regrets is hard for me to bare i look back at all the family photos of us in happier times and ithink why my mum she should have never have gone todays my birthday today and i miss her handwriting on a card i wish i was less selfish but she new i hadmy ownlittle family she was very greatful fo me coming to wash her but i did it but felt like i diden,t want to do it what aselfish cow i am sometimes i dont want to feel the pain cause all i feel is the guilt but i know i did more for her than her own family her own sister ddident even come to funeral or speak to her every thing we think we,d do to help when someone is sick it really doe,s test the human sprit

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