I got to work this morning and was reminded that this week would have been my last week at work prior to maternity leave for my angel no.1. I had a mc in November and then got pg again and lost again end of Feb, trying for our first. I just can't seem to get my head around it its got me so upset. DH is great saying our day will come but I just can't stop thinking that it will happen again and our time will not come. Due to work insecurities we can't try again until I secure another job and that just isn't happening.
Just wanted to get it off my chest as in rl people don't know how to talk about it and often just ignore it. RL friends and family think I am over it and when I try and talk they are either shocked or feel awkward, it feels like they think I should have moved on but I can't cos in past 8 months I have been pg twice without success.
I have 2 lovely step DD's but that just doesn't seem enough.
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I should have been starting maternity leave this week
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FN · 13/06/2006 12:52
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