Does the disbelief ever go away?

[Ducklings45]

As the title suggests really. At the moment I still don't feel like its happened. I keep looking at their FB etc and expecting them to post any minute or add a photo. I just don't feel like they're gone. 
I know they are, and rationally I know it's real but part of me feels like it just hasn't happened and they've made a mistake. 
I haven't cried, and usually i am a very emotional person... it's mainly because I just don't feel like its real. 

Don't really feel like I have the right to post here as he isn't my DP or even a member of my family. But he contributed to helping me get through the toughest time i faced in my life a few years ago and I just can't believe he's gone :(.

[Helpyourself]

Will you be able to go to the funeral? It will help.

[Ducklings45]

No, I'm abroad at the moment and won't be able to fly back for it :(

[GotMyLittleLamb]

I am so sorry for your loss.

Honestly, no.

My wonderful mum died almost 5 years ago and I saw the perfect birthday present for her just before her birthday would have been in May this year. I picked it up and went to the counter before I remembered.

However, the times in between those occasions, when its just a fact of life get longer with time. I can go for weeks or months when it seems that I believe its true, or accept she is gone. It seems to be getting easier, but I honestly still don't believe she is really gone.

[orangeandemons]

I would say, yes, yes it does go away. It takes a long time though, as long as it takes to adjust to them being gone. My dm died 7 years ago, it's only the last year or so I've started to not accidentally think about phoning her .

[Ducklings45]

Thank you. Still feeling like it hasn't happened and seem to be carrying on like nothing has changed

[t875]

Oh Duckling so sorry to hear this. It does get a little bit easier but that disbelief still creeps in though and its still very hard at times. take care, my thoughts are with you xx