Its Jesse's anniversary today

[JellyNump]

1 year ago today my ds died aged 9 weeks and 2 days

[bramblina]

I remember your lo's name, Jesse in a story. I'm so sorry. Do you think you will feel better when today is over? Take care. xx

[rickman]

:(

[AllieBongo]

so sorry. hope you have some nice memories x

[MarsLady]

[Beauregard]

Very very sorryhope your beautiful angel rests in peace.

[doobydoo]

Ahhh Jellynump.

[LIZS]

Hope you can find a positive way of commemorating him today.

[CaptainDippy]

I am so sorry, words quite simply aren't enough, but thoughts and prayers are with you today - and in the weeks / months ahead. //[hugs]

[FrannyandZooey]

Ah no. That is a terrible thing to hear, Jellynump. I am so sorry.

[foundintranslation]

:(
So very sorry, jellynump, and although words aren't enough, my thoughts are with you.

[Rowlers]

This is so sad.
Hope the sun is shining on you today.

[JellyNump]

Today hasn't been as bad as I thought, it doesn't feel like a whole year has gone and we've been so busy in the meantime, with dd arriving and trying to get our house up together to put on the market, he has started to feel a bit like a 'dream' tho because 9 weeks was such a short time and 4 of those were spent in the hospital. He died really unexpectedly (Intrapulmonary shunting during an op), so I think we're still in shock

[threelittlebabies]

Oh jellynump, I am so so sorry to hear this. I hope the day has been peaceful and gentle for you all. I am thinking of you. Much love xxx

[CaptainDippy]

How are you doing JellyNump?? //[hugs]

[JellyNump]

Not doing so bad, thanx. We didn't manage to get to the grave on his anniversary which is sad, we don't seem to have as much time now as the house is on the market and that does make me feel guilty. I know Jess isn't really there but I do feel like I should make more time to visit his grave, although when I get there, I don't feel any 'closer' to him. My Mum, Dad and Brother and my aunt went to visit him tho and put flowers on him, so that made me feel better.

[VeniVidiVickiQV]

Im so sorry JN

[KateF]

Sleep peacefully little Jesse. Hope it helps to post JellyNump, wishing peace for you too.

[JellyNump]

KateF - It does help to post because I wanted people to know about him, I didn't want him to be just a random grave stone :(

[biglips]

im ssoooo sorry to hear

[Greyhound]

So very sorry :( Sending you hugs, peace and comfort as you remember and mourn your beautiful son... xxxx

[kid]

Really sorry to hear your of your loss.
It amazes me that people are able to find the strength to carry on, its not something I feel I would be strong enough to do.

[amyjade]

Thinking of you jellynump x

Kid, As parents it is normal to feel that the death of a child would be too hard to cope with but us bereaved parents have no choice but to go on, i live on to honour the memory of my daughter as i'm sure Jellynump does.

Jellynump
I know how guilty i feel when i don't visit Freya's grave for a while but like you i don't feel any closer to her there, our home is where i feel her the most, she filled every room with laughter and happiness and that is how i want to think of her.

I don't know Jesse's story but as a bereaved parent who also lost a child just over a year ago i just wanted to let you know that i understand what pain these anniversarys bring.

Take care xxx

[Marina]

Dear JellyNump, thinking of you and Jesse. XXX
I am not sure if you saw my post a while ago but I think there is a SANDS member who specialises in finding "named" plants for bereaved parents. I think it was you wondering about this (apologies if not), SANDS HQ may be able to help.

[JellyNump]

Marina - Yes, thanks, I did see your SANDS plant name post

Amyjade - There is a post about Jesse on here with all that happened, its quite along story

[JellyNump]

I wanted to ask a question. We bought a travel system when we were expecting Jesse, which we thought was good because you can lift the baby out of the car still in the car seat and out straight onto the buggy etc etc but now we have dd, who is much bigger than Jesse and a small car, its really awkward and I find it difficult to lift and move around when folded up, so I wanted to sell it and buy an umbrella fold buggy (we have another car seat we can use) but because it was Jesse's I feel bad about selling it as it is sort of sentimental yet rather impractical now, I'm not sure what to do, I feel silly