feeling sad

[2shoes]

Not sure if right place to post
I am just feeling so sad mY auntie who is in her 80's has terminal cancer. I have just had an email from my cousen(not her daughter her sisters) telling me how bad things are. she doesn't live near me so I can't just pop in or help. We were going to visit but my uncle asked us not too as she is not up to big family visits.
Trouble is I can't bring myself to visit her on my own. my Mum died of cancer when I was 18 after being Ill for years. I just can;t cope with seeing it again. I saw another Auntir just before she died and regret it in away as I wish I could remeber her as she was when she was well.
sorry to ramble but not something you can just bring up in a rl conversation.

[VeniVidiVickiQV]

Oh how sad 2shoes. I dont know what to say but am bumping this for you.

xxx

[2shoes]

not really expecting replys but needed to say it (like writing in a diary) to get it"out"
thanks

[notasheep]

Do you think you will regret it if you dont go and see her?

I would really try to visit-i also have had recent bereavement with cancer

[2shoes]

we have never visited loads and I have made sure I have visited her a s much as I could. so I don't feel bad really. I think she would understand as she often said how hard things had been for me when I was young. she has a VERY large family who are all there for her. I am keeping in touch via email and writing her letters. Hard to phone as she can't talk much and my Uncle is under such pressure.