Tribute to my Best Friend - 2 years today.

[Novacane]

Cant believe it been two years since my best friend died.
I don't cry as often.
But it still hurts like it was yesterday.

Im having a glass of wine to you mate,
I'll never, ever forget.

Nova (BF lost to suicide)

[supakids]

Remember the good times eh

[puff]

Novacane - I feel for you - I lost my Mum (suicide) 5 years ago. It's very very tough.

[Novacane]

she was ace.

[supakids]

Tell us about her then. In what ways was she ace?

[Novacane]

She was Hilarious and so innocently daft- she wasn't the sharpest and everyone loved her for it.
She was the most super Mum to her daughter (b1997)
And she loved me loads.

[supakids]

Aaah, there must of been somat that got on your nerves, the way she did her hair, you know the sort of stuff.

[essbee]

I'm so sorry.

[Novacane]

lol, yes, she sometimes put light eyeshadow on up to her brows and she looked like a tit- oh and wore 'Kappa' traksuit bottoms when they were in fashion..... lol

[supakids]

Yep, theres always something Well im off to bed before the dh gets back from his boys night out. night night.

[milward]

Sorry Novacane :( Hope her daughter is ok. Thoughts at this time xxx

[mixedemotions123]

Novacane, I do feel for you. My first husband committed suicide shortly after we got divorced. Not due to me as it was him that wanted to end our marriage. It has to be the hardest way to lose somebody that you love as there is no consolations to them dying. what i mean is when my mum died, we found she had cancer and know that she would have suffered so much. Her death was not directly caused from the cancer, but I know that had she lived she would have suffered the pain and misery of it.
When you lose somebody close to suicide, you always ask what you could have done, did you fail them, why didn't they turn to you for help, etc,etc.
Did your friend leave a note of any kind Nova? My husband didn't, therefore nobody knows what drove him to do it. I desperatley hope her little girl is ok. People can also be so heartless when talking about somebody who commits suicide as you may have experienced. I always remember a family member saying to me "WELL IT WAS HIS CHOICE". Yes in his desperate state of mind it was, but he didn't chose to feel that way.
I am really sorry if I have gone on too much about my own experience Nova, I just feel so sad when I read posts like yours as I know just how much it hurts.
Hope you enjoyed your wine, remember the good times, play some music that she used to like, and if you feel like it have a bloody good cry.

[mixedemotions123]

Puffheart goes out to you too.