My Nan died last Monday.
I am crying every day, alot and it feels so unbearable.
I moved away from home years ago, got married, job children and saw her less and less. I didn't go back home for Christmas because of my job(busiest period)/kids/exhaustion.
I want to turn the clock back and see her again, be kinder than I was to her and hold her close. I did go to see her in hospital the week before she died, she had loads of love and company, but I feel like retching. This has hit me like a train and I don't know where to go with it.
I am forty and Nan was a big part of our childhoods. I have never had a loss as big as this and I can't imagine ever being happy and guilt free again.
The funeral is on Friday and people are saying it really helps. I really can't imagine it.
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Nan died; guilt and longing/I'm in agony
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HestonsFatCock · 23/01/2013 12:18
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