My baby boy was born by emcs 10 days ago at 27 weeks. He lived for 2 hours.
I want to hide away. I feel selfish but I just want to be on my own.
I don't want to speak to anyone, explain the story again, answer peoples ridiculous questions. 'How are you?' I want reply honestly- 'I'm dead inside- but thanks for asking.' but find I reply politely that im ok under the circumstances. I cant take one more person telling me it must be easier as i already have a little girl. I love her, she makes me smile but she is also a reminder.
I don't want to see any of my pregnant friends despite how much they try or read about Will and Kate and their baby joy.
Ive been through denial, sadness and confusion-I'm praying this is just a bitter phase that will get easier.
Did anyone else feel like this? My DP is fantastic but has gone back to work and stays away in the week.
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Rosduk · 04/12/2012 22:39
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