My son died in a car crash in January. It was the week before his 21st birthday. He was my middle son and he had an older brother of 25 and a little brother of 8. He had been with his girlfriend since he was 14 and although very young they had 3 beautiful children together. One of 5, 18 months and a son of 6 months. I am so sad to have lost him but equally sad when I look at the children and realise he is not going to see them grow, or see his little boy's first tooth or when he starts to walk. For the sake of them and my other sons I try to be focussed and get on with life but I feel so drained and constantly sad. If I have a good day I feel guilty and these cold nights I think of him laying in the cold ground and want so much to be able to tell him he should not have gone out that night and to have stayed safe. I am fighting the urge to go to a medium but I so want to "contact" him.
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