I miss my mum and I want her back.

[toptramp]

We had mum's funeral on Tuesday. It was lovely as far as funerals go and the church was packed out. I was so moved. I just cannot I believe that I will never see her again in this lifetime. The day after the funeral I just wanted to go to her grave early in the morning and have a chat with her but i didn't because I have dd. I am so angry and i feel bloody cheated. It's shit isn't it; as is the cancer that killed her. I will never see her again. How final. Although I do get some comfort by her near death experience when she said that she wanted to go home (home= heaven or whatever and has good, comforting conotations) She also said they were coming to get her (they being her dead realatives) but I just feels so sad and lost.

[Theyremybiscuits]

I am so sorry for the loss of your Mum.

I still feel like this over three years on - just not all the time now, that awful lost feeling has got alittle less IYKWIM.

You will have days where you can't face anything, then sometimes remember something funny she did, and you will laugh remembering.

I think you just have to be kind to yourself. Take care xxx

[Sexonlegs]

Toptramp, my heart goes out to you, and I know exactly how you feel. Such mixed emotions.

I lost my lovely Mum 6 months ago (to cancer) at the age of 67. I feel sick with sadness.

No suggestions sadly but I have found coming on MN a real help.

x

[BettySwollocksandaCrustyRack]

Top, sweetheart, I am so sorry. Like the others above, sadly I know how you feel. My mum died of cancer in August and like you I feel angry and bitter, cheated and bloody furious!!!

I have real problems comprehending that I will never see her again...I cant believe that I may live say another 40 odd years and I wont see her..how can that be????? I only had her for 39 years and its not faiir!

No suggestions but just keep posting. If you ever want to message me please do....I so know how you feel and I dont really talk to anyone about it in RL as I think that it is almost a year now and they are prob bored of me banging on about it.......she is in my mind almost all the time yet I exist as if she never did!

Hugs darling xx

[newcastle10]

So sorry. Lost my mum 4 months ago and it is so hard. People in real life have generally not understood. I often come on mumsnet too which is a great help.

[Lainey123]

I lost my mum three years ago . I miss her so much I don't think at times it is any easier than when she passed away . I have friends but the lonliness of not being able to talk to my mother is still hard and actually my life has never been the same but I know that people around me haven't a clue how I really feel .