To wordsmith...... are you there?

[gravity]

Hi wordsmith, i just read your message. i am so so sorry for your loss. i mean that from the bottom of my heart.
my dad died on the 28th Sept. We just had his funeral last monday. he had an unexpected major heart attack. i sat with him from the time i flew home on the Monday night through to the Wednesday night. being there meant the world to me. i was scared of not being there when he passed.
i too feel a great sadness. i have a two year old daughter and a four month old son. my daughter got to know her grandad but not my son. its not fair.
ive came back home and felt myself want to pick up the phone and call him. i took it so for granted before. i should have done it more.

i wanted to let you know, and its silly and you may think i'm selfish, but i took comfort in this - my dad was in a small country hospital. it was quite ironic that his room was on one corner and the nursery two rooms around. the night dad died a lady had a baby in that hospital. i'm rambling i'm sorry.
but this is what i take comfort in - I know my mum and my dad will always be looking down and guiding both my babies and looking out for them.

i've sat down to compile my photos, videos (i wish there were more) and memories for my babies so they will always know who their grandparents were.

this message is so muddled - i'm sorry, but i hope you grasp what im saying

be strong x

[Wordsmith]

Oh Gravity I can't believe it's taken me nearly 10 months to see this message (is this a record?) Thanks so much for posting it last October - I don't know why I didn't see it, i guess I just wasn't checking and it just dropped off the bottom of active convos (the only place I tend to look!)

Anyway, belatedly, I wanted to say thank you for your message. I have just read it for the first time and it's made me cry! I'm so sorry about your dad, it's really difficult isn't it. It's coming up to the anniversary of my dad's death and I'm starting to feel quite low, more so than I have since the weeks after he died. It wasn't until this week (ironically) that we scattered his ashes - in a little river near Churchstoke on the Welsh borders. On trips to my auntie who lives in mid-wales, we always used to pull into a layby for a cup of tea and a biscuit, and dad would wander back to the bridge over this little river, Apparently he told mum that's where he wanted his ashes scattering, so that's where they've gone.

I hope you are coming to terms with your loss, and thanks once again for your kind thoughts - it really means a lot to me.