I'm at my wits end. DD is 4 and I'm about to have another baby any day now (so realise I'm being very hormonal and sensitive about this, but still...)
DD has been going to the same preschool for 2 years now. She started off doing 3 mornings a week and for the last year has been doing all 5. On and off during this time she has had phases of not letting me go. Sometimes it's mild - just a comment or whatever, but for the last few months (and some other times pre-pregnancy) it has been full-on, all the way to school, howling and clinging to my leg so that she has to be physically prised off me, all the time screaming 'don't go mum, don't go'.
Thing is, I KNOW that she is happy there. She has ALWAYS stopped crying as soon as I've left the room (literally within 10 seconds apart from one time when she was ill). I can't drag her away from the place at the end of the session and her teachers and friends all agree that, once I've gone, she's a happy, confident little soul.
We've talked about this endlessly together. I've bribed her and told her off, I've praised her to the hilt on the odd occasion that she has let me go without a fuss. All she will tell me is 'well, I just don't want you to go', but she understands that she has a better time when I've gone, that I love her very much, and that she doesn't have to say these things to 'prove' she loves me etc, but nothing works. And then suddenly, for no apparent reason, historically she's come through and not fussed for weeks on end.
I try really hard not to react (but obviously she knows it gets to me), but today was her last proper day at the school and she started it up with all bells and whistles right in the middle of the doorway with everyone trying to get round her. I'm really to admit I just lost it (v hormonal) and said 'for god's sake, it's your last day child, just get in!', and attempted to manoeuvre her in myself by grabbing her hand. I must have been a lot more rough than I'd meant to be because she started screaming and screaming that I'd hurt her. All the parents and teachers there looked really shocked and one of the teachers took her off me without looking me in the eyes. Then DD just sobbed on her shoulder and wouldn't say goodbye or look at me when I was trying to say sorry.
I just have been crying since. I alternate between feeling angry with her for putting this show on every morning just to get a reaction, and really really guilty for leaving her when she's begging me not to.
I'm really scared about what's going to happen when she starts school in September and there won't be loads of helpers who 'get' her and I'll have a small baby to deal with too.
In every other way she's a really happy confident girl, and those who know her can hardly believe she's like this. She also clings to me physically during parties (even if it's all her friends) and any time DH and I go out she gets hysterical - again, to calm down AS SOON as we've gone out the door.
What can I do? We've got a school taster session on Thursday and I know she'll cling to me the whole time. What about September and going to school? Am I the worst mum in the world for what happened today? And do I hold the record for the longest post in history...?
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Don't go mum, don't go - please help (v long)
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Straightforward · 11/07/2006 10:40
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