Hi
I wanted some advice as I don't feel I can talk to anyone in rl. I don't know if what I am feeling is just normal first time mum blues/struggles or whether I may have mild pnd.
I have a 12 wk old ds who I adore but I just feel like I'm constantly struggling. I get angry at my dh a lot of the time and end up yelling or crying every few days. I just feel constantly tired due to lack of sleep and I resenting my dh for not helping more. I am up bf between 2-4 times a night with no break/day time nap to catch up and I just feel like I can't keep going like this. I am so worried that our marriage isn't going to survive as we just aren't a team. I spend my days running after baby and then trying to do some housework. My other half hardly does anything house wise, he will occasionally Hoover or make dinner but its me who cleans the bathrooms, dusts, mops floors etc and I just can't do it all with a small baby. Cue me resenting my husband and him feeling I nag when I yell at him. I know I could leave the housework but the mess fuels my anxiety.
I feel anxious quite a lot and constantly doubt my decisions with regard to my ds care. I have found bf incredibly stressful so have decided to switch to formula to help lift some of my anxiety. I just want to stop feeling trapped and to enjoy my life, I enjoy looking after my son but its hard work and I just think my dh doesn't get it. I feel like my son comes first, then my husband and then I just don't have time to help myself as I'm always worried about the other two. I've nearly lost all my baby weight but my self esteem is on the floor as I'm covered in stretch marks and my body has changed shape beyond recognition. I know it will take time to get back to pre baby shape and in the grand scheme of things it doesn't matter but its just another thing which is making me feel crap.
Anyway sorry for the long post, just needed to vent. Does this all sound normal and how can I make things get better?
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Are my feelings normal or could it be pnd?
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xxx28xxx · 30/07/2014 13:31
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