Hi,
I have always wanted a baby and for the last few years thought it would never happen for me.
Then just prior to my relationship fizzling out I found out I was pregnant. I was totally shocked by the news and felt an overwhelming sense of dread but just convinced and reassured my self that it was just shock that would soon pass.i also kept telling myself that this was my last chance to be a mother- I'm now 31 years old!
Then over the next couple of months depression set in and I have been unable to work, leave the house or communicate with friends. Me and my partner have separated as I have felt so low that it is having a negative impact on him. He has urged me to terminate the baby and I visited the clinic on two occasions but became so anxious I was unable to make the decision of what to do for the best.
I am now 20 weeks pregnant and each day is getting harder. Every morning I wake up with overwhelming dread and anxiety with negative racing thoughts going through my head constantly. I feel as though I have been trapped in a night mare that I cannot run away from.
The doctor prescribed me citalopram 10mg but it has not helped me at all and although two referrals have been sent to the mental health team they have still not initiated contact.
I don't know whether I feel this way due to wishing I was having a baby with somebody I love or do I now have a serious mental health problem.
I feel so bad that I am even considering a late termination just to be free from anxiety and even suicidal thoughts. I feel aweful about even thinking this but u just don't know what else to do.
Does anyone have any advise they can offer me?
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Samantha0526 · 11/07/2014 14:59
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