Is this pnd ?

[Sleepy678]

Just wanted to ask other new mums if anyone feels like me & is it normal to want to think you wish you weren't here ? I would never do anything but right now I don't want to carry on ? Everything is too hard & I'm too tired. I do love my 8 month but always think she'll be fine with my hubby & my mum & feel that I'm trying to do well but can't. Just feel low & fat & old & not me anymore. Hate seeing people I know as I bet they think I've let myself go etc. Anyone in my position feel same ?

[Christelle2207]

I'm no expert but this sounds like it could be pnd to me. I have a 7 month old who doesn't sleep well and I'm exhausted but don't feel that low. Please go to speak to either gp or hv- whichever you prefer- I know medication can help people in this situation x

[Arranoxford]

Hi there.

I work with depression in the NHS and I would recommend you go and get some CBT which is available on the NHS for free. Make sure you ask for face to face rather than over the phone CBT. CBT can really help you with all those negative thoughts about yourself. Sadly, early motherhood is the hardest job I have ever done but it does get better. Help is the key and sharing your problems in a group is really good too.
Talk to your health visitor and GP. There are lots of us mothers in the same boat and sharing how you feel with them can really help. I found it much more helpful than talking to my partner or mother which was sometimes unhelpful to be honest.
I have had low mood with both babies and there is lots of help out there because it is sooooooo common.

Biggest hug to you Cxxx

[Marylou62]

Oh my. All my DCs are adults now and was just browsing MN. I could have written your post OP. I remember Robbie Williams singing 'I don't wanna die but I aint keen on living either' and that's just how I felt. Please get some help. My Gp was amazing and I had counselling. ( I was offered pills but didn't want them. Part of the illness!?) But I must say, this awful feeling DID pass. Have you noticed how many Mums have posted on this site. Message some and get TALKING.

[Catnuzzle]

I've been where you are and I'm out the other side. Counselling and pills and luckily wonderfully supportive friends, family and colleagues. Speak to your GP, it WILL get better.

[Sleepy678]

I just wanted to put on a follow up post. I had an emergency appointment with a counsellor / cbt therapist & after having just one appointment so far I feel alot better about things. I think I cried for the whole hour & got alot of things off my chest & all my worries etc. I left feeling as though a huge weight has lifted. I'm hoping this will really help me in the long term. The therapist was excellent. I recommend any new mum like me to ask for cbt. It is free on the nhs & you are seen quite quickly. I am starting to feel better, not back to my old self but definitely a bit happier & much more positive. I now think im not doing so bad - I'm doing really well :-)