Hi
I am newly pregnant (6 weeks on Wednesday, due date June 11.) This is my first baby.
Although I have always wanted to be a parent, I have been so low. Please don't judge me on this but I even considered not going ahead with the pregnancy because I felt so down about it. Not exactly the thought of being a parent but I just felt deeply unhappy and outside of myself.
Feelings I have include -
a sense of feeling trapped (I have a stressful job and feel resentful I can't look for another one due to baby)
a sense of not feeling good enough (worried I will be a rubbish parent)
fear of the unknown (please don't judge me but I'm very frightened of having a boy, which hadn't been an issue prior to pregnancy. I don't know why! And of course there is a good chance it will be a boy - 50%)
paranoid (feel that the handful of friends who know are judging me)
Overall I do have moments of feeling pleased but mostly I just feel as above, tremendously anxious and unhappy and it frightens me.
Does anybody have any advice? I hate feeling like this
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TheMoonInJune · 12/10/2013 17:56
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