I've had PND with my 3 older boys, worst with DS1 and getting milder each time. DS4 is nearly 3 weeks old and I'm wondering if I've got it again or not.
I've had all natural births and breastfed my others. But DS4 was born by C-section, 5 weeks early. He has a cleft lip and palate so can't breastfeed although I'm expressing. He's still in scbu although I'm at home. He also has very low muscle tone.
DS2 is having his squint repaired in day surgery on Thursday. I'm supposed to be rooming in with DS4 next weekend so will have to leave him to be looked after by DH and MIL. I'll also be missing DS1's birthday celebrations although DS4 and I should both be home for his actual birthday. The HV is already being really annoying and we haven't even left the hospital yet. I find her very patronising and she is insisting on coming round to weigh DS4 etc twice a week when he is discharged.
Not being able to do things after my C-section is driving me mad. I'm getting lots of help but my mil keeps putting the children's clothes away wrong (DS1's pants in DS2's drawer etc) and DH hasn't emptied the kitchen bin even though I've been asking him for 2 days. I tried to sort out the clothes myself but got half way and then my scar was hurting and DH told me I shouldn't be bending.
I'm spending a lot of time at the hospital or pumping. I'm so tired from pumping in the night. I feel like I'm not being a proper mum to my older 3 children because I can't change DS3's nappies or pick up DS1 and DS2 from school. I feel guilty for leaving DS4 on his own and I keep crying for no reason.
I don't know if this is PND or just an understandable reaction to a traumatic situation. I'm seeing the midwife on Monday but not sure if I should see the GP or wait until DS4 is discharged and DS2 has had his operation to see if that helps.
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elliejjtiny · 23/06/2013 02:32
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