So, DS is almost 11mo and I think I may have a touch of PND. I'm basically ALWAYS on the edge of rage at everything. Things that used to not phase me - like DS being woken from a nap by the postman, or refusing to go down in his cot so I have to push him in the buggy, or leaking nappies when I'm late leaving the house, or endless dishes and laundry and cleaning up after food, or constantly waking and crying at night - now make me want to scream/punch the wall/cry. I hate feeling like this. I'm just always angry and feel like I can't get anything right.
When I feel particularly bad, and say DS won't nap - which we all know is a crime ;-) - and is trying instead to play with my hair or crawl off my knee, rather than just think, Oh I'll try again in 5/10 mins, I sometimes have these vivid images of throwing him onto the floor, or shaking him even as I'm just so annoyed at him.
I want to go to the GP about it as I hate feeling like this and its no fun. Anyway - my question is this. I imagine the GP will ask something along the lines of "do you ever think about harming yourself or your baby?" much as the HV did at the maternal mood assessment. Now I can't say in all honestly that I haven't had these thoughts, but am worried that if I tell the truth, the GP will send someone round to take my baby away :-((
Should I just leave that bit out? Even if its these thoughts in particular that I find so distressing and worrying?
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if I tell my GP the truth will they send social services round??
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flipflopson5thavenue · 18/06/2013 09:33
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