Hello,
I don't really know where to start.
I am 36 with 3 children aged 13,3 and 7 months, married.
Since having my last baby I feel very low,unhappy,ugly,fat and I am very awful mother to all of my children.
When my DD was 2 weeks old I went to GP and she diagnosed me with PND,but I thought she was wrong,I was putting this down to baby blues,lack of sleep and very demanding baby. She prescribed me antidepressant ,but I have never take them.
Until last week it was sometimes good ,sometimes not,it always depend on how my DD was,when she was good,then I was o.k,when she wasn't then i was unhappy,moaning but generally I was coping,well kind of.
From last Monday I feel so angry all the time,I have always had bad temper but nowhere near as bad as it is now.
I cry almost all the time,and I am day dreaming about smashing and destroying stuff around me, whenever my DC cry or want something from me I feel very aggressive towards them.
I have never hit them ,but I don't know how much longer I can restrain myself.
I feel so empty,so disgusting ,sometimes when I am driving I want to crash into a tree,I think my family will be much better without me.
I have so much hate inside me,I hate pretty much everything and everyone.
I want my old life back,when I was working ,has many friends,my fit body,and my all happiness . I don't have anything from the above list now,all I have is my filthy house ,screaming children and nothing else.
I called my GP this morning,but they gave me app at Friday, I have no idea how I'm going to get through till Friday .
What do I do now??
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SpikeHairandFab · 15/04/2013 12:07
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