Just that really. First baby, 4 mo, can't shake my constant sadness, anxiety, loneliness, feelings of hopelessness. I can't get my head around being a mum even though I wanted it (I feel like if I tell friends I'm not coping very well they'll wonder why I went ahead and had the baby). My partner is wonderfully supportive, he recognises I'm depressed. I can't see myself ever having the energy to be a good mum, the mum our child deserves. Once I'm no longer needed for breastfeeding in future I feel like he should just run away with her (that sounds crazy doesn't it?)
I don't want to tell my GP/HV as I don't want the attention, I don't want to take antidepressants (BF ing and took them as teenager, didn't like numbing effect), don't see the point in therapy as I talk to my partner. But I feel a bit stuck, I can't imagine ever feeling better. Help?
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Prob PND but don't see point in telling anyone
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ThreeWheelsGood · 26/02/2013 09:07
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