I have a 14 week old and a 5 year old. I'm on maternity leave and the plan is to return after Christmas. I don't like my job and I planned to form some kind of long term plan to change careers while on maternity leave. I was also supposed to be sorting the house out!
So far I have made no progress with either of those things. I am shocked by how little I achieve each day. I feel the school run hems me in at either end of the day and I've been taken aback by how short it seems to make my days. It seems to take up all my time just keeping on top of laundry, dishes, cooking, shopping and the most basic of cleaning. There seems to be no time for anything else. I keep thinking, if I can barely keep on top of having two children now - how on earth will we manage when I am back work?!
I am dreading going back to work, but wouldn't want to be a full-time SAHM even if that were financially viable. I feel like I am never going to achieve anything very much with my life and can just see myself being hemmed in by children for the next two decades. I spent most of my twenties, after I graduated, not achieving much because I was waiting to have children, now I've realised I will be in my fifties by the time they leave home and I'm wondering when I'll ever do anything for myself. I wish I'd had children younger or got my finger out and worked and played harder when I was younger.
My husband has limited patience to talk about how I feel, he just says things like 'I don't want to hear about problems, only solutions'. But I can't see a solution to how I'm feeling.
So, my question is who do you know whether this is PND or not? As my husband pointed out, I feel miserable and short tempered quite a lot when I haven't just had a baby. I am dressed with make up on every day, the baby is lovely and not at all difficult, I'm getting enough exercise walking with the pram every day. But I do feel lonely, frustrated and worried about the future.
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LeafySuburbs · 04/07/2012 12:08
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