I just feel that I will never have the carefree life i used to have. Somewhere over the last three years I have lost myself - I don't do the activities I used to enjoy, my husband and I don't find time do do stuff together without the kids. I never pamper myself. I can't even do the basic maintenance around the house and my career that I spent my whole life building up is just over - why did I bother to work so hard? I generally only sleep 4 to 5 hours a night, even though it is mainly not the kids keeping me up but my own lack of ability to sleep. Some nights recently more like 1 to 2 hours. I mainly just feel totally out of control. I am driving oh crazy as I won't go away for weekends for fear the kids won't sleep although spend my whole time complaining about being in the house too much. He has been amazing, including coping with me waking him in the night in a panic every other night.
I know that it has been tough as I have a 9mo and 27mo so 18 month age gap - the second child being a surprise.
I saw the doctor and he has given me sleeping pills for 7 nights to reestablish a sleeping pattern and to see if things improve. Does it sound like PND? I didn't think i was as I don't feel down really, just anxious and stressed over small things.
Please tell me if this is normal to feel like this or I need to get some help.
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emoo777 · 28/06/2012 20:24
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