Hi
I'm new to mumsnet so apologies if this is covering old ground.
I was diagnosed with PND when my baby was approx 6 months (he's now 7 months) and being naive I didn't actually realise it could kick in after so long (I thought if you were going to get it, it would be within the first few weeks after birth). Because I didn't realise this, I thought I was immune and therefore it really was like a slap in the face as it seemed to creep up on me.
My pregnancy was great and birth was fairly straight forward although I had a complete and utter nightmare with BF (baby wouldn't latch on and when he did he completely stripped every inch of skin from my nipples - OUCH! This lead to thrush, 7 weeks of expressing and eventually having to give up), which in hindsight could well have been the start of it all. However, even though I went through a tough time I still managed to get out of the house for walks and to baby groups etc.
In the last couple of months I completely lost my confidence, questioned whether I'd made the biggest mistake of my lift by having a baby I didn't know how to look after properly (in my view, not others) & stopped going out to groups etc, started feeling majorly anxious all the time, crying etc and after visiting the Dr I was diagnosed with PND and am now on Citalopram (which I've actually taken previously due to suffering from depression in the past).
I have good and bad days, but the bad are really awful - the outlook is completely bleak, and although I take some solice from the fact I've got help and there are probably more good that bad currently, the down days seem to set me back in my thought pattern. I just don't seem to be taking much enjoyment from any situation and feel that I'm wasting/have wasted precious time with my baby (who I love dearly), especially as I go back to work (part time) in June. I just wondered if anybody has been through similar and has any thoughts/advice on the best way to move forward as it's sometimes easier to take advice from those that aren't closest to you.
Thanks (and sorry if I bored you to death with this post!)
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PND diagnosed after 6 months
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fludda · 13/04/2012 12:46
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