Struggling to cope

[mammainlove]

My dd is 22 months. I'm also 7mths pregnant. I have a great family, some friends, but I hardly talk to anyone, it's difficult and they don't really listen, understand.

I feel totally depressed at the moment. It comes and goes, so I don't know if it is pnd etc. I'm just so over sensitive. I'm crazy in love with my daughter, we co sleep, I hug her to sleep every night. This is becoming difficult with indigestion. I'm starting to be really scared about baby#2 coming. How is it going to work if im stil hugging dd to sleep? Tonight I got really mad with her, she wouldnt sleep without wanting a hug, or laying on my hand which hurt. I started to resent the fact that she isn't grateful I'm with her all night stroking her, cuddling etc. I got angry that she's spoilt so I was mean and kept pushing her away, quite roughly which made her so upset! She is asleep now, on me. I feel so guilty, bad mum, hate myself so much. Me and dp are always arguing. I'm just an emotional wreck! Friends are so distant. I honestly don't know how I'm going to cope with 2 children.

Sorry for ranting. I really need a good friend. If anyone could just try to understand me, help me in any way, I would really appreciate it.

[kaylouise2184]

Hi I really feel for you. Firstly don't feel like a bad mum your not we all struggle at some point. I'm no expert on PND but maybe you should talk to your Gp or a health visitor who could give you some advice on this.

What are your plans for sleeping arrangments once baby comes along? Your bound to be emotional so close to the birth and in my opinion what your feeling is natural.

If you want to talk at any time just message me I am usually on here evry other night or so. I cant offer you expert advice but I can be some one to talk to or share advice with.
Hope you are feeling better soon.

[mammainlove]

Thank u, ur very kind. x