A week ago my baby was born. I had a horrible labour that lasted 44 hours and then followed by an emergency c section. Worst thing ever! She is my first child, she was unplanned but I was still excited. I am 20 years old and I thought I could handle it. I can't... I have so much support but it just isn't enough. When she was born I wasn't excited, and the days that followed I just cry. I hate breastfeeding, I'm so scared to be alone with her and I just want her to sleep. Feels like all I do is spend my time feeding her and trying to calm her. Yesterday I felt great I thought all the bad feelings were gone, I was happy and exxcited and in love with her. Today I'm back to crying. I want to stop breastfeeding but I don't think my partner wants me to and my mother in law might be upset with me. I feel like I would dissapoint people if I stopped. I don't want her to cry and I really don't want to hold her. I feel sick constantly, I can't eat and I just want to sleep for at least 3 hours! I started taking my anti deppresents again and I have a doctors app and I made an appointment with my thearapist but it still doesn't seem like enough. What do I do? I know I love her and I dont ever think of hurting her but I just can't handle this.
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