I'm well and truly angry at the moment. BAby is 6 weeks. I started out having very definite views about what I would do as a parent. Breastfeeeding on demand was very important to me, as was baby wearing/slings/carriers. I also wanted to use cloth nappies.
However! Im feeling incredibly overwhelmed by this new baby. I can't cope. I'm finding that i'm getting constantly angry with my baby. He feeds constatnly throughout the day like he's constantly snacking or somehing. This tires me out so much. He's also fussy at the breast - the nipple is in the right place and his mouth is wide open but he doesn't take it. Wer''e both getting annoyed with each other i think. Also, he's constantly clearing his throat and ends up getting upset with this. I have no clue what to do about this. Also, he has bad nappy rash with cream from gp.
I have no family near by and i don't get on with my mum anyway (she's very judgemental and if i tell her something personal she goes and blabs to other family members about me). the health visitor and GP are both not very good. whenever i go to see them they always say "this is normal for a baby" - well why am i going crazy then?! Am i a bad mother?!
I'm starting to think that perhaps i should just put him in a nursery where someone who knows what they're doing should look after him. But then what would i do at night - i can't get someone to look aftger him all the time.
The other thing i'm thinking of is just scraping everything. Stop the breast feeding and go to bottle, get rid of the ridiculous sling that i can't get the hang of (however, we live in a tiny top floor flat, so buggy would be impossible anyway) and using disposables. I read a few baby books whilst pregnant (Oliver James, Sue Gerhadt) and now that i've become a parent, they've made me feel like a complete failure because i'm not very good at all this. i feel that because ive got to this stage of being angry etc, i've ruined everything, ruined our bond and that my baby is going to hate me.
Is this postnatal depression or am i just completely incompetent at this? I'm so upset because i had no career anyway (just had a crappy job where i was the dogsbody), i just feel completely unable to do anything.
i don't know what to do, i can't go on like this.
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Zoero · 22/03/2012 06:38
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