My son is 2 months old. I just thought it would be different, I knew it would be hard work but my son seems irritable most of the time and he doesnt seem to smile as much as other babies. I just feel like i am not enjoying him. I hated being pregnant, loads of stuff went wrong in the birth (not to plan) and he is just not a happy bunny. Before i had him, i was just bored at work but now i am exhausted all the time. I have no family living nearby to help me. Everyday I wake up and i feel like i am just looking forward to the night when i am allowed to sleep (a bit) again. I do love him but i just feel like he doesnt really like me very much. I feel like running away but then i know i would be judged and don't know if i could take the guilt of leaving him without a mother. Where would i go as well? I have a mortgage, my relationship would end.... My family would hate me. It just feels like there is no way out. I just want my old life back but realise this is not possible. I just mourn for it all the time which i know is pointless. Even though it was boring and i hated my job, it seems blissful compared to this. I do get out to groups when i can but am in loads of debts so can only really walk places.
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am i getting depressed or am i just heartless
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hostelgirl74 · 30/01/2012 11:01
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