Hi
I have a history of depression (2002) and family (mum and sister) of pnd.
When does what you're feeling stop being just mood changes and hormones and pnd.
I love my son but sometimes I don't feel like I love him enough.
I see my oh with him and feel jealous lo 'smiles' more for daddy than for me.
I have had a terrible battle in my mind when lo has had bottles of formula and often delegated daddy giving him it than me, I felt rePlaced.
When lo cries and I'm in bed I pull the covers over my head wishing I could stay asleep, I do get up and tend to him and love him, I don't leave him, I don't get stressed out when he won't settle.
What else - sometimes I fantasise about staying home alone all day and just hiding but that doesn't last.
Unlike when I was off work I do get dressed and showered everyday, we go out most days, mostly I initiate/insist on going out if daddy is iff.
I am socialising, in real life and text/email.
I'm eating tho tbh because I have (breast feeding) to rather than hunger, I have less of an interest in food than I normally do- I'm snacking more tho, a comfort thing, and cis it's there.
I am looking forward to stuff like seeing my friends without baby and going back to zumba!!
What else can I share - I dunno really....
Just wondered when life with a baby and the emotional journey becomes something more....
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When dies it become pnd?
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glitternanny · 23/12/2011 00:00
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