Usually I read other people's posts first to find my answer, but I just really feel like I need to offload first.
I've felt this emotion building up and building up for a few weeks now and this morning totally the most stupid thing tipped me over the edge and here I am with tears in my eyes. I am on mat leave with DC2 and am just finding it so incredibly lonely. Admitting that is hard, as for weeks I've been putting on a brave face.
I can't work out if it's just because the days are emptier now without work and therefore I have more time to think or if it's something deeper. Then I can't help wonder if when I am actually at work if it's just one big distraction anyway and this depression or whatever you want to call it is always lurking.
Sorry if I'm not making much sense. I don't really know what I want to say but I do just want to scream!
I find myself so jealous of other mums in the playground chatting away and then every now I hear them mention something that they've done together out of school hours and I just wonder why haven't I been included, what is so offputting about me? Am I really sending out "go away from me" vibes? I try to chat and be friendly to as many people as I can but haven't really formed any friendships and it's starting to get to me now. Hell I don't even know if posting this is going to help but nothing to lose.
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PND or just mat leave loneliness?
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Ancilotta · 02/12/2011 10:00
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