I can't go to the doctor. I CAN'T.
I won't take tablets. I WON'T.
I shout at everyone. I can't cope. I can't sleep at night. I don't know if it's depression or if I'm going mad.
I'm a regular. I've changed my name.
I just want to kill myself. I'm supposed to be happy.
I think I can cope for a day or two and then something goes wrong like I lose something and it makes me so angry. It makes me so angry that I can't stop shaking. I shout at my husband and my baby. Then I get so upset that I slap myself in the face because I hate being alive and being such an awful person. Then I feel nothing. Then I just want to sleep. Maybe a day later I feel like I'll just magically fix everything only it always goes wrong and I get angry again.
My family would be better off without me. I know they would.
Please, please, please don't tell me to go to the doctor. I don't want anyone to know what a failure I am.
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I spend every day angry or crying. I've got PND and I don't know what to do
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