to think I am a DISASTER as a human being?

[MitchyInge]

kick me, I'm down [masochistic emoticon]

[CMOTdibbler]

nah, you're good with horses, dogs, and elderly landrovers, so you can't be a total disaster. Plus you are very kind to a horse newbie

[elmofan]

[kick] whats up mitchyinge ?

[MitchyInge]

don't know

just want to be more like a normal person and less like an idiot?

[whyme2]

Oh it's like that. I often have days when I feel like the village idiot.

I usually find hiding indoors with a book and lots of tea is the only solution.

What has happened?

[heQet]

Why do you feel like an idiot (I'm sure you're not, btw )

[SolidGoldBrass]

WOuld reading some of the MN What Not To Do classics help? YOu might end up thinkng well at least I don't [insert any particularly good Shiny exploit here] and feel better.

(SOrry to take your name in vain SHiny but some of your comedy exploits are legendary or should be).

[CMOTdibbler]

I'll video my riding lesson in a minute - then you can enjoy the sight of a total idiot on a sulking horse, in the sleet, being laughed at by the myriad of little girls on their half term pony camp.

Alternatively, have a hot chocolate with whipped cream - works wonders for the non specific blues ime

[MitchyInge]

everything really

suddenly the writing off of land rover by hurling it at a giant snowball and then getting catastrophically stuck in the mud at weekend (although was just working, not being an idiot on purpose then) and sort of finishing it off just doesn't feel very hilarious now have taken on unreliable and unhelpfully enormous/expensive vehicle to replace it

don't know why am posting this here to make self look even more ridiculous

< < < < hides under a month of dirty laundry

[MitchyInge]

oh don't be nice to me

AIBU is not for that

AIBU is for 'yes too right, you don't deserve to LIVE, grow up fgs' type responses

[elmofan]

ahh mitchyinge - i read your thread yesterday about your land rover being held together with sticky tape & had a good laugh , you seem to have a great sense of humour , not an idiot at all . you seemed like you were in great form yesterday , has something happened since then to make you feel down ?

[fernie3]

I dont think those things make you an idiot, I have never even managed to pass my driving test because I have panic attacks driving - now perhaps that makes me an idiot!

[OhYouBadBadKitten]

quite a reaction to not being the greatest with your vehicles recently! I wouldn't write off your life just cos of that.
Is it really just crap vehicle management or are you generally feeling down/cross?

[MitchyInge]

well the 'new' one broke down about 8 times, that has taken the wind out of my sails a bit

am sure will be laughing about it again soon, at moment am in panic/tailspin about work and the horrific responsibility of supporting my family [martyr]

really need to pull self together

[OhYouBadBadKitten]

(btw, I meant that kindly - when I could drive I'm the sort of person who would run over bushes planted on corners, wasn't meant as judgment)

[OhYouBadBadKitten]

ah. the last thing you need is an uncooperative vehicle. Enough to send anyone over the edge a bit.

[luckyblackcat]

Grow up fgs...felling better now?

I haven't made a decent decision in years, even picking a queue in the supermarket is a challenge and I always pick the slowest - crap example I know, but we would be here hours, nay days, if I posted the litany of disaters I have been in/caused. Not even amusing enough to get on mumsnet classics and some have hurt!

I am now, quite obviously, having a midlife crisis and have developed an obsession with a fictional caracter in a book aimed at tweenage girls.

I am a saddo I tell ya!

[OhYouBadBadKitten]

so. Really, you have tonnes of things spinning round your head and it is overwhelming. Can you break them down a bit more so that perhaps we can help, or at least as a way to see yourself through?

[whyme2]

it is okay to have a day off from being a grown up.

And no YANBU for feeling a bit crappy.

[luckyblackcat]

Sorry did I scare you?

I was having a really tough time recently, too much stress, too many responsibilities, fanancial issues etc in the space of a week I cried in front of 2 of DD's teachers and my new vet (who then hugged me and made things so much worse, I'd never even met her before).

I had got to the point where I couldn't do anything, completely impotent, due to the overwhelming anxiety and responsibility I felt.

Take some time out if you can, be good to yourself, deep bubble bath, book to read and some wine. Then delegate some of the responsibilities if you can.

I hope it soon passes.

[MitchyInge]

no no

you are all v nice, was just having small snivel

really have to try and get to work, will think of something nice to do for self later

[EcoMouse]

Your snowball thread was hilarious.

The new vehicle being shoddy isn't sequential to the circumstances surrounding the demise of the last one!

You could have ended up with a shoddy new vehicle for any number of reasons but at least you had a giggle when finishing off the last one. Could have been a head on nasty, for eg.

Can you change new vehicle for something more suitable?

When I read the snowball thread (giggling, it's the sort of thing I'd do!) I thought 'I wish such childlike fun was still within the grasp of more adults!' it was a genuine wish that more of us could just let go, like you It was inspiring!

YANBU for having 'one of those days', we all do.

YABU for being so hard on yourself generally!

[luckyblackcat]

I like to tidy my shed tack room/feed store when I feel stressed, it is the one place where I can beat the chaos that exists in the rest of my dwelling and it is so rewarding afterwards.

Have a good day at work.

[Alicetheinvisible]

Hey Mitchy

I am having one of those days today. In a complete stress and panic about everything and want to go to bed with a weeks supply of tea and junk food. The only reason i haven't polished off all chocolate, biscuits and mini chedders this moring is that i am despperately trying to get DD out of the bad food habits that i got her into

[Alicetheinvisible]

Can't fecking spell either

[skihorse]

YABU - unless you're concealing a history of rape & genocide!