DD is 2.5 and I'm 8 weeks pregnant and a SAHM. I'm normally so good at keeping her busy, taking her out regularly getting exercise, doing activities and eating well. This is my third pregnancy but we lost DS as a newborn last nov.
I just do not remember being this exhausted last time even though DD was younger- although I do suspect the emotional issues around being pregnant are not helping (I had an emcs at 27 weeks for reduced movement with DS he died 2 hours later)
I have now felt sick continuously for 3 weeks and vomiting occasionally but everything, I mean everything, that I smell including washing powder is making me wretch. I have headaches from the pressure of being sick and can't even muster up the energy or cope with the smell of opening the fridge. I was sick with my last 2 pregnancies but not this bad.
Poor DD, I'm trying to get her out of the house each day but it's not for long and I keep plonking her in front of the tv while I'm trying not to be sick or while I'm being sick. I reckon on and off she watches 2 hours a day at the moment. I sometimes can see she's bored and i try and do an activity with her. I can't cook every day, it makes me sick so she is often having sandwiches/soup for one meal and an Annabel karmel ready meal for tea.
My family live 2 hours away and are helping one day and she's at nursery 2 mornings a week but I feel so sorry for DD the rest of the time as she is not getting the attention, the home cooked healthy meals or the daily routine she deserves.
AIBU to my daughter. This has been going on for 3 weeks, I'm praying it's not too much longer. If you flame me fair enough, but any suggestions welcome!
AIBU?
To feel like the worst mother in the world
Rosduk · 07/10/2013 11:10
You are doing what you need to do to get through morning sickness. I only have one DS and spent every moment I wasn't at work lying in bed groaning, I cannot imagine looking after a 2.5 year old too.
There's nothing wrong with a few ready meals and a few weeks of tv won't do her any harm at all. Once morning sickness has passed you can get things back to how you like them, but for now be kind to yourself. You're not a bad mum, you're a fantastic mum or you wouldn't care so much.
I'm sorry for your loss and congratulations on your pregnancy 
You're obviously not BU, your daughter is absolutely fine. She isn't going to notice the brief lack of home cooked meals, and 2 hours of TV is nothing! Honestly, you have nothing to feel bad about.
I'm so sorry about your son 
You are not a bad mother! You are pregnant, unwell with it, no doubt anxious (I'm sorry for the loss of your son) and tired! You clearly care about your DD and are trying your best under the circumstances.
What's wrong with having a cuddle on the setee with your DD while she watches TV? You can still interact with her, chat about what Mickey mouse is doing etc. It's OK to have quick meals, it's not forever and you can make it fun for her. My DD loves spreading a blanket on the living room floor and having a 'picnic', you could set all the teddies up to join in. Or make a den under the table by draping some blankets over? Minimal effort for you but good fun for her.
Above all be kind to yourself. I have chronic back pain, had a bad episode when DD1 was about 18 months, I felt so guilty about the lack of attention she got because I couldn't do much. I cried to my own mum about it, who pointed out that she'd had exactly the same back injury when I was 18 months. I watched TV, ate whatever came out the cupboard first, and didn't get to go to toddlers for a good couple of months. Did I remember it? No! Was I affected by it in any way? Absolutely not!
to you.
If it makes you feel better, you may feel like the worlds worst mother but your not. I am. Dd told me this morning! 
Sounds like you're being an excellent mother, despite really tricky circumstances. Agree with pps about going into survival mode - morning sickness will not last forever and a few weeks (or even a few months) of less healthy meals and fewer outings will not cause your DD any lasting harm.
Do you have friends who can come over and help entertain her for a bit, or a playgroup where she can run around while you slump in the corner and sip ginger ale? How about your partner - is he able to take some days off for outings and support in these early weeks?
to get you through this early bit.
I am in a similar situation with nausea and extreme fatigue though starting to improve at nearly 11 weeks, thank goodness. On my two days looking after DS alone a week he has been living off toast and watching TV literally all day. I've barely been able to leave the house. I also don't remember being this tired last time around but it won't last forever and it won't do any harm. Good luck with the rest of your pregnancy
Rosduk, you are really really not a bad mother and from what you've said, your daughter is fine. Would it maybe help to remind yourself that although she is a child, she is also a member of your family and as such anything that has an impact on someone in the family (ie your unrelenting sickness, which sounds absolutely debilitating) will also have an impact on her, but that is just what being in a family is about. She is also getting all the benefits of being in a family as well - that she is loved and cared for by her parents, which is a massive deal and part of the whole package. But real life and families working and pulling together and getting on with stuff isn't ever going to be a string of endless perfect days one after the other, and that's ok, and it's fine. It really is.
I hope you feel much better very soon. Please don't give yourself a hard time on top of what are very difficult circumstances.
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