Hello,
My husband and I were recently approved to adopt a sibling group. We have been shown a profile that sounds great and could be a short time a way from adopting two children. I've wanted to be a mum for a long time.
I do not have a good relationship with my social worker. I say that, though I do not think she really has any idea how I feel. I thought she was a great social worker in the early days, then I read our PAR and was shocked. The report is totally biased towards my husband, she obviously considered me good enough to get through panel but I do feel that the report sounds nothing like me. I do not feel she knows me at all. Don't think she knows my actual strengths and weaknesses. I did challenge my concerns on draft report, she was pretty defensive and basically said that's her opinion and that is how I am. She agreed to change some bits but other bits wouldn't. She has never given us complete version of report. I feel worried about asking for it, draft was not nice reading. She protrays me poorly. The whole process has not been much fun mainly because of this. If I was sitting on panel, reading the report, I'd think, "what a shame he is taking adoption leave". I just sound a bit rubbish and that's not how I view myself.
In addition there are significant tensions in our marriage. My husband is not by nature a very supportive/ empathic man and maybe this process has just made all that worse. When the social worker says pretty judgemental things about me, I feel he is in a position to defend me a little but that's just not in his nature. I'm struggling. He does not seem to understand at all the impact all this is having on me. I'm starting to wonder what I'm doing.
I really don't know what to do.
I feel fed up when I think about what we've been through and sad to think that despite over a year long assessment, I come out looking pretty awful. (Though as I say, good enough to pass panel). I worry that maybe the relationship my hubbie and I have isn't strong enough. If we can't stay united, be there for each other through this, how could we manage children. It's so difficult. I wish I could see in to the future.
Please help.
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lookingforsunshine · 11/07/2014 04:37
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